.. I'm a mother..

tarikh 23hb pkul 3-4pg perut aq da skit2 sket2.. rse mcm senggugut tp lebih menyakitkan dan sangat kerap.. boleh kate 5-10m skali.. aq igt perut x sdp sbb mlm smlm mkn bger..( hee..smpt mkn bger!) bile hubby tye npe? ok x ..aq ckp ok je..skit prut biase kot..tp asik kua msuk toilet buat dy risau sgt.. dy ajk g klink..aq ckp xde pe.. tp dlm pkul 8lbey aq btul2 da x kuat nk thn, aq pun g jmpe mak mertua aq tye..kbtln dy pun nk g klink untuk check up, smpai sne aq kne seluk la nk tgok jln! wat pertme kli kne seluk sgt2 memalukan.. nsb baek nurse pmpuan.. bile kne seluk muke nurse 2 laen mcm, dy x brape brani nk ckp so dy pgil ketua nurse kt ctu suh cek kan, 22 nurse 2 ckp da 7cm..jln da bsa sgt.. tp cm x confident ble tgok aq relax je? pgil plak sorg nurse yg mmg da berbelas ta0n pengalmn..pun sme gak kptsnye..

aq baek2 nk bersalin kat jb terpkse tkar arh ke hospitl kota sbb aq dihntar naek ambulan, ye lah jln da bsa ble2 mse kalau aq teran bleh kua..tapi...

sampai je hospital kota, aq kne seluk kat bilik saringan..jalan nye jadi 5cm plak?? haeran aq..kin kck..tp dsbbkan dah lbh dr 4 cm aq trs kne msuk wad b'slin.. kat dlm 2 kne seluk lagi tp jln mkin kck! it's change to 3cm and then turn to 2cm.. really weird.. pttnye mkin bsa?..

bile dah jd 2cm dorg ckp blm tbe mse lg so aq ditmptkan kn wad menunggu.. duduk la kat ctu pkai bju ospital kale pink.. jiran sebelah kann aq da overdue..dah lbih 7 hari dari tarikh jgkaan tp blum nk kua lg.. jiran kiri aku blum smpai due tp da skit2 mcm aku la.. dy nk b'slin ank ke3.. jirn dpn mse aq smpai dah ade baby tgu nk blik je..

ble time melawat, mak ayh sume dtg, tok encik bg air selusuh.. suh minum ble dah skit2.. aq plak asl skit je mnum la air tu..x tau plak air tu mnum ble jln da bka btul2 bsa sbb dy akan buat kita merasa skit untuk pakse kite teran baby.. aq jln bru  bka 2cm dah mnum, skit mcm org gle la aq kt ctu.. sampai pkul 9lbih (mlm) aq nekad nk g suh nurse tgok ln da ade ke x sbb aq da skit sgt.. jiran2 aq sume da tdo.. bile kne seluk nurse 2 ckap da blh kua, so dorg tros send aq kt wad bersalin..x smpat nk amek hp.. x smpat nk bgatau kat hubby..

sampai wad bersalin jln bru 4cm, plik btul td kat atas ckp dah boleh bersalin, kt bwh kne tgu jln bka smpai 10cm sdgkan aq punye rse skit dah mcm nk mampus.. aq siap b'doa kat tuhan supaya ambil nyawaku, aslkn baby kua selamat sbb aq da x thn lg.. mse kat wad aq la pesakit yg pling gns, sume aq tndg mse thn skit 2, tp ade sorg nurse ( pelatih ) baek sgt..tiap kali aq mengamuk dy bcekan ayt2.. usap dahi aq.. pgg tgn aq.. mmg bgus sgt..kne plak ng nurse yg senior aq kne marh sbb x sba2.. org tgh skit mmg la x sba..

pkul 12.lbih..aq menjerit ckp nk berak..nk g tndas sbb td dorg ckp aq blm blh b'slin jln bru bka 6cm.. tp aq ckp " nurse sy nk g tndas, sy nk berak.." dy ckp x blh..aq bkn nk berak tp dah nk b'slin da tu.. last aq grm sgt aq push je..kelam kabut dorg nk siapkan perkakas..huhu.. dyorg suh teran kuat..sampai aq dah xde tnge nk tern.. dorg gnting sket..rase sgt kne gntg 2..eee..seram ble ingt blik.. pastu laju je baby kua.. bersih baby..baby boy! dy tros ltk kt dada.. pastu uri plak aq trn untuk kua..dah kua sume, kne jhit plak..in alive.. skit sgt!!..

pkul 2 lbih bru setel sume, sbb tgu baby kne inject.. naek ats wad menunggu ingatn trus nk cl hubby, tp xde batry plak.. nsb baek jiran sblh t'jge dy tlg cas diam2..cl hubby dy cm x cye..heheh!

..ape2 saje..

this is my beautiful youngest sister.. Natasya.. just 6yo.. next year she will be in year 1.. that day she won 2nd prizes of "PAKAIAN BERAGAM".. actually i didn't expect at all that she could win it, coz lot of her friends were so cute and good in dressing.. hehe.. ( aq ckp omputeh ni pun da x bpe nk btul kan) hahah.. let it be.. who care right? anyway congrats to my cute sis.. budak ni kdg2 klaka.. ske wat hal sndri tp bgus sgt sbb dy dga ckp.. n dah pandai bsuh pinggan sndri.. good girl!

this is my youngest brother.. known as APEX PERCY on his fb.. budak ni mcm2 hal sket, time dy 3yo, i men2 ngan dy..inside my mom room..maen lari..sampai he jtuh n terhantuk pd bucu katil besi mak i.. terpancut darah! b'lubang dahi.. nangis2 aq time 2.. x pasl2 b'jhit kpale.. and then i cycle a bike with him.. his leg get into the rem ( cmtu ke je rem beskal?)..from jari kaki until ankle ~ kulit dy terkoyak..nmpak daging.. aq jgak y slh.. ngis2 aq.. my big bro bisng2 ckp x geti jge adek.. abes nk wat cne, aq dah jerit2 suh dy kang2 dy y x nk dga..( naek beskal yg ade seat blkg 2..).. umo dy 4-5yo, dy g potng sndri kulit ibu jari kaki..pkai pisau jilit plak 2.. dasyat bdk ni.. bhye.. org tgh rewag potong bawang dy potong kaki..hish!..mcm hal lg la.. plik aq ng  dy..heee.. next year he will be in form 2..

this 1, my sis ( adek gak ).. we both different 3years.. she is now @ Kolej Matrikulasi Johor.. 18yo his year.. now she is good in dressing her scarf.. teenage right? always want something unique.. i want it too but not confident at all.. hehe..she is the 1 who always play doll with me, sleep with me..( b4 i further study and get married).. she also my partner to share about love, problem and the 1 who will fight with me..heheh.. miss her and miss a memo with her.. now everybody r grown up.. don't look back!.. x banyak kesah klaka ngan dy.. ntah la x bpe nk ingat.. huhu.. her skin r more whiten than me..( mmgla mse mak ngandgkan dy mak mnum soya je.. ).. dlu dy ckp dy putih sbb pkai sbun lux! hahahah.. dy mmg da azali berkulit cerah.. aq je yg cm kne burn sket..hee..

it's me.. tgh tgu ari je baby nk kua! doc ckp anggaran berat bdn baby dalam 2.8-3kg.. fuh..agak memberansangkan..mtk2la sng kua nnti ye..

my husband.. tp pic ni time dy bjg lg.. skg da nk jadi papa!!..syg, sy syg sgt kat syg!!..smoge b akan dimurahkn rzki dan mendapat job yang melimpah ruah untuk menyediakan segalanya untuk kesenangan anak kite nanti..amin.. love u b..








pic abg aq je y x msuk lg.. nanti la aq edit balik.. laen kali aq cte psl adek ipar aq plak.. maklumlah kne mtk gmbar..tkut dorg marh plak msuk pic y dorg x ske t..heheh

..The time is coming..

today, i had an appointment to see a doctor.. like usual.. just to check my baby.. alhamdullillah my baby is just fine.. it's funny when a nurse try to measure my stomach, hehe ..my baby kick my stomach twice.. such doesn't like anybody to touch his/her mom!..haha..love this memo..

..love my baby..love my family..love my hubby..love myself..

The day will come.. my baby will see the world.. that is the day i'm going to feel how its feel to gave birth.. how its feel become a mom.. although i am excited.. i'm still scared at the same time.. can't imagine how my baby look like, how i am look like when has to push him.. oh.. i'm so scared! hope my hubby will be beside of me, although he said he don't want..but i really hope he could..he said he afraid to see it.. for me, what he tried to said is he didn't confident at all to see me.. such don't to give me an inspire or spirit.. i know i scared but what else can i do? neither want or not, i have to.. i need to make sure my baby safe.. really hope everything is just fine..

my husband n i..

everyday when i went for a sleep, he always didn't at home.. don't know what he doing outside, but it really made me so sad, mad and everything that in the same meaning with bad thing.. sometime i drove to spy on him, it is true, he just hang out with his friend named obey and alau.. alau is the owner or burger shop so that is the place my husband spend his time.. he said it better that sit at home don't know what to do.. just like an idiot..  sometime when i can't slept, i waited until him get back.. but when i'm tired i didn't realize when he get back, i just know that he is back.. and when he get back, i'm the one who being his barbie doll..he said he hate when seeing me slept with so comfort so he love to disturb me.. what a habit? does anyone out there jealous to seeing his wife sleep well? - what a weird husband!! when he disturb me, of course lah i wake up..but when i'm wake up he force me to get sleep back.. that time i feel such want a shoot his face.. thank Allah i still know my position as his wife..hehe..what a funny husband!

today's story

i'm feel so bored today.. don't know why?.. so i take a few hour drive with my mom in law to salon.. i get my new hair cut 2day..hahah..actually last 2 week i just cut my hair until my shoulder but i not really satisfied with the fashion, so i brave my self to cut again my hair although my hair now is already short! without my husband permission.. when i'm back home, he already watching his movie..and my small sis in law said " along...nak tau x..kak ita kan.. dy kan.." so i shut her mouth and take she run from that place..suddenly she said again " x la along kite tipu je!"..when she said that, my husband knew something is going on and he notice my haircut and look at me at a long time! and he said " why u cut ur hair again? just waste.." so i'm say " i didn't said anything when u back with ur new hairstyle!- BOTAK.. he knew i don't like to see him botak style.. but he always doing that..he said it more easier than using wax! save time and cost.. i'm just said.."erm..yelah.." at least he didn't mad with my new hair..ahakz!

miss my family..

ahad ni da rye haji..aq ni ble gaknye nak naek haji..merasa ke x ek? erm.. aq arp sgt dpt bw mak ayh g haji tp 2 pun x tau la zaman bile.. rindu nye ngan adik badik yang lain.. bukan pe, skg ddk dkt ngan mak mertua so ari2 jumpa adik ipa..so terasa la gak rindu ngan adik badik sendri..mak ayah pun aq lme x jmpe..

rindu nye kat dorg ni..sbenanye ade abg..tp ngan abg wtpe nk rindu2..geli je..hahah.. nk tgu dorg kwin x tau la zman bile.. so aq sorg je y trase jaoh dr kuage.. mak ayah, ita rindu sgt2.. rindu yg teramat!

..tired..

Hari ni terasa letih sangat, mungkin sebab perut yang memang dah comfirm2 besar, nak b'jalan pun terasa payah je.. banyak plak urusan hari ni..


- bangun pagi2 untuk siapkan borang tender, salah aq jgak dah tau nk kne submit sblm tgh hari setelkan mgu lpas ke..mlm td ke.. ni x, time nk submit time 2 la nak buat.. hish!!


- bawa mak mertua cari barang dapur untuk masak tengah hari tapi kne singgah Maybank so drive dalam 15m nk g bank, akhirnya x sempat masak beli je lauk yang da siap..hee..blik sgah jap bsn nk simpan wet bdk kje..tkut ilang..


- amek adik ipa blik sek, sgah kdai bli kertas A4 yang dah abes kat ofic 2, singgah bank islam nk simpan wet x blh plak sbb mesin dcm dy rosak..mls aq nk tgu lme2..so blik je tp sgah lg tpi jalan bli jambu..


- sampai rumah kne plak buat gaji budak kerja, siapkan slip gaji, kira2 gaji..arghh! tensen! bos balik tau nk siap je la.. pastu ade sket plak kesilapan kne la dga kemarahan bos 2.. tp kjap je dy mra.. x smpai 1 minit pun..huhu.. ye la mne blh mara aq..aq kn ngandung..ank dy jgak!..hahaha..


- dah siap bahagian 2, buat plak tuntutan bayaran untuk syarikat, teringat plak laporan dari pegawai x sampai2 lagi, duit semua nak cepat tapi kje jalan..alahai... slow motion!


- ptg ni akut bos g bank plak nk setelkan duit ansuran kereta, dari pg td asyik g bank je..tapi sume lain2.. ptg ni g Cimb bank plak.. adus!!.. nk g cimb bkn dkt.. kne jgak ddk dlm kete dlm 30m kalau drive laju la..huuu..penat..